One thing I can say about life is that even when we don’t want to, we are made to go through and experience different situations that are designed to build and strengthen. One such situation that took place with me broke me severely but in the end I came out feeling stronger and better equipped to live this life, my story goes a little something like this:

I was once in a relationship many years ago with a man who I realized was a master manipulator. At the time I believed that he was perfect for me because he liked what I liked, catered to me and all that is wonderful that women usually love in a man. After being with him the mask fell off and the real person stood before me. The verbal abuse came shortly after now words can hurt and they can heal and he used his words as weapons negatively.

This man did all he could to make it known that he was in charge and he did all he could to separate me from my friends and family. Things got so bad that even laughter was an issue for me.

At work he called constantly as this was his way of making sure I was at work and  nowhere else. Things got worst with him cheating and as a woman this hurts in a major way.

Many more things happened and eventually I began to sink into a hole of depression where I felt as if I was nothing, worthless, incomplete. I felt lost and alone and in those dark moments I prayed for strength and a way out.

I eventually left this man and even in leaving he became my stalker.

Time passed and eventually this man no longer had a hold over me. I became stronger as God became my Go to. No longer did I feel broken or empty as I became truly who God created me to be. Strength came from the dark places in me and a light then began to shine through me like never before. No longer was I miserable, no longer did I cry myself to sleep at night. I knew my worth and one what I deserved so by the time I saw this man  again he no longer had a hold over me.

Even after trying to get back in my good Grace’s I realized that I no longer spoke to him from a place of hate or a place of contempt instead I now pray that God will make him into the person he needs to be for his daughter.

This is definitely growth, this is maturity, this is what happens when God takes the broken pieces of one’s life and puts them back together which is why to this day I call myself Peace